Last night I stayed up nearly the entire with Carmen. She wanted to press her head against my neck, and rock, rock, rock.

By two in the morning, my head started to buzz. I traded babies with Matt, rested for an hour or two, and when she was finally asleep, joined her.

I woke up an hour or two later, listening to Matt and David play. I relaxed in the bed, thinking and feeling my head buzz again. Then I heard the garage door open. Where were they going so early? I slipped away from Carmen, and walked outside in time to see Matt and David ride away.

I didn’t want to be left alone, not after last night. I dialed the cell number, and heard it ring in the kitchen. Argh! Where was he going, and when would he be back? What if I had a seizure? Who would help me?

I decided I should go back to bed,  little unsettled and scared.  I lay in bed, listening, until Carmen woke up, and Matt returned home.